Emotions Havoc.
Wey, Hey hey hey!!! =) Here i am… ERM, Honestly, i’m in anger now. Not so a good beggining to start my blog like this, as this will make ppl misunderstood about me not having a good time? Half-half la… Currently, i am EMO-ing. So long didn’t blog, and when i wanted to blog, i signed in so many times into this page!!! ARGHhhhhh =.=" Normally don’t want to blog than so easy to get in… DENG. Can’t guarantee the length of this blog oso. Depends on my mood.
There are several reasons on my EMO. The biggest problem is, i don’t mind to mention it that i have counted on my calendar n’ predicted my AV to arrive tmr. Maybe this is what causing my mood swing. I felt tidious, don’t want to do anithing, i just want to sit down and relax in a good environment. Better still, there is someone in front of me to be scolded. Crazy? I juz feel like i want to scold ppl only. Frustration is IN ME.
Besides of my AV coming on the way, i am having some problems with my Baby. It shall be kept personal, and STRICTLY not goin to mention anithing here. Just take note tht it’s shown in the effects of my mood. Although it affects my mood, we are still a happy couple. Yeayaay! =) It’s all about ACCEPTANCE and FORGIVENESS. Which couple never argued? But i bet our problem here is out of ordinary ones. Eventually, he did most of the persuation part, you guys know how ‘HARD’ i am. Therefore, i am always the one winning him to persuade me back! Haha, not bad huh???
You know, i can cry easily these days. Might be an effect of strees, or the hurting heart. Frankly speaking, again, STRICTLY not to mentioned it here, my heart is in pain recently. I always feel insecurity, and might be attacked anitime. WHY IS THIS HAPPENING????
MY home in Tmn Segar. Thinking bout it makes me mad. ONE DAY, i am going to do smth about it. NO meaning. There is this person who just SHOULD BE IGNORED COMPLETELY. Someone who’s has an overboard EGOISM, almost, or can ‘teng piu’ alr. Just don’t know how to talk properly to people who are younger, thinking that he’s the elder one so he is ALWAYS right? BULL SHIT!!! Hey dude, you don’t know WHO you are talking to okay? DID u ever spent some precious time understanding me? YOU NEVER, you don’t see the need, cause u don’t really care (yet u ACTED like u cared so much). Hipokrit. U don’t KNOW ME WELL in fact, so don’t simply go judge me with ur seetupid perception. Don’t ever FRAME people, yet, sending THREATENING and RUDE messages scolding me like hell with ur ’so-eduacated-the opposite’ words! You do not respect urself and others. DO YOU KNOW THAT YOU CAN BE SUED? I pity this person’s in his level of education. I think this person’s mind is really SPOILT. Or, He just simply HATES me for having the FULL RIGHTS to share half of the ’something’ tht he thought he deserves to have 100% authority towards it??? I Dunno… Tht’s wht i thought. I sympathy him in fact. He juz can BLAME BLAME BLAME and BLAME people, always thinking that ppl are taking advantage of him, and he is the one always loosing. In fact, no ppl cares also. YOu know who are the pity ones? Those who don’t see their own weakness, but like to point out other ppl’s weakness. Pathetic BOY.
Yet, picking HIS OWN thoughts to punish himself.
In a home, there should be a harmonious environment. But what if ppl juz don’t want to click with you, and being so ridiculously picky on you? He say you doesn’t respect him but did he ever respected me in fact? very funny guy. The "I am the elder one, so u must respect me" believe. Ask him to go back to the olden DAYS!
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I have not finish with my Emo-ing story. Some ppl might see me as TOO EXCELL. What is the meaning of too excell? Can anione tell me? This is another problem i am facing in my adv. dip level. Sorry to mention it so directly here, but i have these team members who are WEAK i can say. (STRICTLY NO OFFENCE) They might have their own talent in somewhere else, but for me, at least in the case we are teaming up to complete all assignment given, i don’t see how well they performed. SAD to say, i even GAMBLED with my coursework mark. I know they can’t performed well, but i juz let them do it. I am not an angel to finish up erithing for them, hand it in and they get marks for it w/o contributing anywork. Where is the fairness? I do guide them through, sighz… they juz don’t SEEMED to understand. And the most frustrating part is, they are always taking the ‘easy way’. Always want to make the assignment as simple as possible, hey, we are all in advance level, no? The other thing is PRESENTATION. I do have my fear too. However i got the guts to face it. For them, it’s like taking their life away. "Don’t know how to present, don’t know how to explain". Wey,—–>>> LEARN LA!!!!!!!! it tht my problem!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! SHEESH……………………… Tht’s y i don’t volunteer to do the presentation. LET THEM LEARN. NOT NOW, WHEN MORE??? I am seriously not giving any form of compromise for them. i am strict in my own way. We are a team, i dont mind if we get low marks bcos it’s all about how much effort we put in. But, make sure the assignment is pass, and erione takes part!! Don’t tell me u weak in this weak in that, i will tell u back i am WEAK in erithing and let’s all don’t do it! In the end, i will submit the assignment individually, and get all the marks for myself on own efforts myself. FAIR right?
p/s: Don’t feel provoked or sensitive with wht i have stated. It’s wht i really want to share out, there’s limited ppl to understand. They won’t understand, and i admit tht sometimes, my expectations might be very high, so let’s juz move together to achieve our goals… Again, NO OFFENCE.
Other ppl can never change you to a better person unless u urself take ur own initiatives!
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LUcky me, i have long desired for this kind of feeling and finally GOD answered to me, sending me my Baby! Those little little things tht he did, is enough to create a smile on my face! Like, Meal ready on the table when i came back frm college, i didn’t bring water to college but there’s one inside my bag and i was so thirsty at tht time! Then, come back to find out my clothes being washed and dried, there’s no water heater here, so he knows wht time i want to bath and he will boiled hot water for me, even prepared a nice water temperature for me to bath… WOW!!! But me bad, i Never praised him. Sometimes even throw hot temper to him~~~ Wuahaha~~ He also got show his temper to me la!!! Bad Baby… Hhmph~! Ngek~Ngek…=)
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