Breaking happenings.
Hello everybody. I’m back with my blog. long time no see. Revolutions have not been stop seeking for me like most of the time, my life keeps bothered with problems non-stop. but i do not take it as something serious, it effects me, but also makes me grow up, being even mature than before.
let’s start off with a summary? i will juz mark out the ‘happening dates’ in short!
25/01/09: iI was at PD counting down my 2009 auspicious Chinese New Year.
26/01/09: 1st day of CNY. first ‘pai nin’ at Maple’s house, then proceed to the CLASSIC relatives home.
**EX-boyfriend was not happy i did not bring him along. I still do not feel he is the right one yet, why i want to bring him along? if i break up with him and found a new bf, then another new year bring another guy to see my CLASSIC relatives? what are they gonna think of me? why everytime not same guy? DARN. Actually, i REFUSE to follow him back to his home for reunion dinner is already a sign i loose security with him. Alan is still the best choice after all.
27/01/09: have a big fight with MR.EX. he blames me for leaving him alone and said overboard things to me. i was so so so angry, upset, disappointed with him, AS ALWAYS.
**There were sweet things that he did, but double the suffer and suffocated times when we were together. I need to be realistic, and RATIONAL. i will not let a moment of sweetness to ruin the rest of my life, living in the world of sweetness without HAPPINESS. sweetness and happiness is two very different things. i don’t want to hide anymore.
28/01/09: we got back together after the-day-before’s fight. but it did not last long.
**I went out in the afternoon to meet up with friends and leave him completely on trash. To be honest… all the while there have been a lot of problem going on with us. just that i do not want to report on the negatives as i am still giving room for improvement to him and myself. but… we are juz not puzzel-ed together. we have very big gap bewtween us, very different way of thinking, very different way of doing things, so much difference in personality, and i definately cannot stand his childish, irrational, irritating behavior and attitude……….. whatever u name it. his actions never ever goes through his thinking. do only want to regret. his arrogant is even worst. im sure literate people would know what is ‘TIN KOSONG’? he is one very typical example! =.=”
but juz one thing in common: both also bad-tempered. can we still get along? i am sick of the relationship already, sick of fighting on and off, on and off. i can’t understand how other people can say:
“FIGHT IS A WAY OF LOVING EACH OTHER MORE…” This is bull shit. At least i think it’s bull shit. we cannot communicate, i cannot talk to him. he is juzzz….. SO NOT THE ONE, will do. i juz feel so ….. SICK. i know i cannot continue anymore.
it’s not that i want to complain right here, but uz that what he did all these times, even after we broke up, is making me so sick of his idiotic way of thinking and doing things. leaving him is a good choice, but after leaving him, what he did proves leaving him is the BEST choice.
29/01/09: DECLARE BREAK UP with MR. EX.
**Finally, made up my mind. stay firm stay calm, be steady. and consistent. no more consideration. no more soft-hearten. juz, firm decision. he expects me to keep him company 24/7. wherever i go, he expects me to bring him along. who i meet, who i know, he want to take charge. GTH. really… GTH him. im really sick of him. he has done so many things to upset me, yet with my soft-hearted weakness, he is taking advantage of me one time after another. he’s a SICKO.
Thanks to my long lived girls, Rachelz and Yuanie for the companionship, for the support, for the… everything.
30/01/09 - 15/02/09: nothing much happened, juz that MR.EX keeps pasteuring me, pasteuring me, and pasteuring me.
03/02/09: Go to Kampar with Yuanie’s company. Need to pay for lodge and not stay at my house as we get prepared in case MR.EX finds his way to kampar, he cannot find us.
04/02/09: Went for WR exam in the morning.
**Go back to hotel and went swimming with Yuanie afterwards. Expected. MR.EX is at Kampar. We got a warning call. WHY is this GUY… COMMON. i am doing my EXAM. if he really thinking on behalf of me… should he really go up therE? anything, wait me to come back to KL first. He’s a phycho.
16/02/09: 1st day at Putrajaya Marriott, attending orientation. will be having trainning there for my advanced level.
**MR.Ex came. i was expectng it. juz hope it will not happened. but proves me right, he is still the immature sicko. making a fool out of himself, as always. don’t tell me he loves me, trying to win me back. but PLEASE. i have made a final decision. i made a final choice. i am leaving him for good’s sake. whatever he do, i will only see a fool in him. he hurts me damn lot, and im not a good one as well. so, why not juz leave each other alone? still want to do so many things also will not change anything. PLEASE. the more the thing he do will only gets me even paranoid with him! shoo off!
19/02/09 - 18/03/09: was sent to an outlet. Trainning begins.
**It was not fair actually, i am suppose to be a management trainee, but out of three of us, only one were selected to the management. Momo and me were send to operation while Ling is in the HR. not her fault though, juz the allocation was… not fairly assigned.
**FED UP of MR.Ex keeps pasteuring me. Fnally made a decision to change mobile number.
20/03/09: an incident happened.
**It was juz a misunderstanding, but i was framed, blamed, and insulted by the outlet manager to gain back his own credit. moreover, flame was worsen by the selfish supervisor who strives hard to be promoted, adds merit to me becoming a victim. talking nonsense about me. i was damn depressed. Welcome me, to the world of hoteliers. full of conflicts.
23/03/09 - recent: management trainning. invoices, official checks, vouchers, checks… whoofff!!! my eyes also go #.#”
**MR.EX berserk founds out my new number on his very own dirty way.which makes me so irritant agian. i am living so peacefully without him. why still disturb me?
It’s not that i want to complain right here, but uz that what he did all these times, even after we broke up, is making me so sick of his idiotic way of thinking and doing things. leaving him is a good choice, but after leaving him, what he did proves leaving him is the BEST choice. he can never give me the least security i expect to him to provide. no point together also.
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