MY PLaCe to ConFiDe…

20 Mins to go till 5PM and i can go back! Tonight Baby’s cooking me dinner again, hOoooorayy!! ‘hang fook siu lui yan’..=)

Feel so guilty actually, lol… Should be me making him meals, instead he’s cooking me meals! frankly speaking, i’m a damn LAZY girl. i won’t do the kitchen especially! I HATE SMOKES. Ciggarette’s smokes, air polluting smokes, cooking smokes. HE KNOW, and pretty disappointed of it, but wtd? Tht actually makes him love me more! WAHAHA~

Yesterday, i meet up with AFA. so happy to see him. we go yum cha with Joyce and 2 more of their frens, with me and my Baby. i wonder can he survived long on the beautiful island? he said he wants to go to United States again to earn more $$$ while young. Correct way of thinking. he’s capable geh.. i believe he’ll have a good way of his own! Fafa…….~

Now, each and eriday of me working, i’m looking forward for the time when i can see my Baby after work. He’s been fetching me up and down frm my 1st day of work here. NO need to say how touched and thankful for him being so caring and supportive. i’d alwiz envy girls having their other half to pick them up wherever they go. Last time, i’ve been so independant tht i don’t understand why those girls need to be so DEPENDANT on their BF? Not tired meh the guy??

ONLY to realise, it’s ‘HANG FOOK-nes’. It’s really good to know that after a day’s work, he’d give me assurance hugs n kisses. It pays well the whole tidious day! So so so warming~

Only thing is, he alwiz nag me not to sleep at the living hall!! I alwiz missing in the middle of the night. When he got up, i’m not beside him. Ahahaha. Mine’s a single bed. It’s definately an issue for us. not tht i sleep with ‘kung-fu’ style, nor him sleeping with another ‘kung-fu’ style of his own. I JUST WANT HIM TO SLEEP MORE COMFORTABE-LY!! My sofa’s juz as comfortable as bed la…..

OK TIME!! BYE!!!

U know what? Normally, people are so exited over gifts and prezzies~ U may want to open it ASAP to know wht’s inside the nice nice wrapping. Of course, i do too…

U know what? It’s so WEIRD. It’s been 2 weeks tht the present  has been lying against the wall at an angle of my room. It’s wraped up so ‘georgeously’ i ‘em sia tuck’ open it…

REALLY???

I must be kidding.

Remember 2 weeks ago when i got back, i went to VVIP’s hse. I’ve chat with him in his Accord, Comfortablely, but CRUEL-ly leaving my BABY alone in his car. Selfish-ly hiding myself frm his sight somemore. There’s a ‘Storm’ btw the ‘Persona’ and the ‘Accord’. Baby’s definately out of the sight. And me, enjoying my 1 hr time with VVIP.

Bladdy ME!

Walao… until a certain extend, finally i asked him, "Where’s my present?"

"Not yet time…"

"Wht not yet time? hehe.. so u rmb it’s apr 14th!"

"U purposely changed ur mobile number and told me to rmr it’s ur b’day number….-__-" "

"Haha! BUTTTT…. I’m not meaning the present for this year! Last year’s present u promised me for so long alr u still haven’t give it to me!!!!!!!" (i give him a look as if he’s lying…)

"It’s inside my hse….."

I was pretty exited. I went in his hse with him… And he finally… ONE YEAR LATER the-NOW ONLY passed his MIGHT-be-first-and-the-last present to me.

U know what? The moment he went inside, he SUDDENLY got ANGRY and say, "WHO TOUCHED MY THINGS?!?!?!"

Then, he spotted an angle where ‘HIS THING’ is being placed, bring it up, and passed it to me.

I’m more than satisfied. And nervous. He said, "I really bought u smth.. u thought me lying?"

Yea. So… i took it, feeling so Touched. It’s nicely wrapped. Some sort of frame structure.

Weird thing is… Until now… I still left it unopened. It’s still displayed ‘ELEGANTly’ in my room.

I asked him, "Does this present meant smth…?"

He looked surprised, but said nth…

"Wht makes u buy this…?"

"I see it’s nice, so i juz ask the girl to wrapped it up!"

How seetupid? Why ask such thing? what thing i WISH it to be? Wake up idiot me! What i WISH it could MEAN..? SHEESH.

BUT, It’s still sealed. Maybe i want to open it tonight. This is the 1st time i don’t open the present i get!!! why why why??

Wow.. did alot of scoldings to myself. not so good, my BABY will not like me to be like this. Ok. Done.

SEE? Crazy me. Either long time didn’t post a blog, or i can post severals in one day! lol… No la. Just finished my work so got some free time to post a bit~ A BIT? We’ll see, hehe!

Yea, class will commence end of next mth. I have applied, waiting for the offer letter to come. Then i wil have to go up to Kampar oftenly to look for a place to stay and settle down. Of course, my HONEY will accompany me thoroughout the whole process! Enjoy what… *SmilesSSss*

I’m sure i will be guilty again when the time comes and i will have to abandon him alone in KL. wtd? i want my studies! don’t ask me why i wanna go back to studies, i juz make DRASTIC change most of the time. i find myself SOooo ADVENTURE and hard to be targeted, even myself find it hard to believe. Young girl, ‘yum sing’.

So, while waiting for the class to start, i’m currently still working for D’Coconut, not in the island, but at the reservations office located in Ampang. Will work till end of Apr, and then i’ll go have all my own sweet time till class officially begins! What a life! Yea! the only thing im excited over is spending QUALITY time with my beloved! hehe ;p

Life’s been good, im sure u knoW? With my honey… EH. if u don’t know, i TELL you. Since i got back and gave him a surprised… He was so touched! Of cOURseeee sheesh…! i said i’d be back on 13th, but i pop up right in front of him on the 10th, and he nearly teared!

However, there’s this sad thing. Scold me, blame me, struggle me. i think i must have been MAD, i must have been insane, i must have been crazy. I’m so out of my mind!

The 1st day i got back, as soon as i went back home and settle down, i went out straight to look for my Baby. But unfortunately, i am more excited over some other thing. My VVIP.

U know what? i did something so OVER tht thinking of it again, i really hated myself for it. How and why on earth CAN I BE SO CRUEL?

U guess.

I asked my BOY, to fetch me to HIS hse… yes. i asked my Baby to do smth… which me myself don’t wanna forgive myself.

He’s so sporting. We confessed to each other yst. We talk ‘heart’. And it hurts me, looking at his sincerity towards me. He knew wht’s happening. Indeed he said, "Important thing is, In the end u still choose me, u didn’t leave me….." Ow…! How touching! heart’s melting!

Wht thing bothered him is, i openly introduced him to all my frens. He felt weird when i forbids him to get down the car that time. WHAT the HELL am i doing?! I feel more akward when VVIP said "Let’s go for a cuppa with ur BROTHER."

B.R.O.T.H.E.R.?

Yea, brother. I lied to VVIP. He asked me who’s in the car. I kept quiet. He thought my BABY’s my brother. WTF??!!!? And i don’t even bothered to tell the truth!!! Shouldn’t me be telling him how glad am i to have my BABY? Shouldn’t me be telling him how happy i am at tht very moment?! In Fact, i said, "YESS, MY BROTHER. He’s 19…"

SO LAME!!!!!!!! F*CK me off man!

SPANK me!

How could i say smth like tht? It’s so unfair!

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Well, pals. I know i’m wrong. My heart fluctuates, i cannot control it. BUT!! I can tell u, he, my BABY treats me with all his heart. At least i can feel it. I’m very happy with him. I’m myself. i need not to purposely dressed up for him, need not to purposely act like an angel. I’m a devil to him, haha! The happy thing is, we share same hobbies, staying at home watching tv! Lazy to go out! There’s juz so many things CLICKING btw us… Don’t care how long we can survived. as long as we enjoyed our time till NO TIME. hehe;p

U know, since i got back bout 2 weeks ago, he’s been staying at my place EVERY night. We really enjoyed our time together. The hug he gave me, his kisses, he’s attentiveness towards me~ here’s smth akward, but terrific!

U know wht’s the best way to drink Vodka?

Yea, VODKA! My Favourite liquer/liquor!

HEHE… Having it *Mouth to Mouth*!!

Yea yea, try it, of course, must be with the one u love!

Wheeeeeeeee **blushings**

Having him cooking me dinner on my B’day… Brought me a comforter set~ so tht whenever i sleep i will think of him.. Smart la this guy! When i’m tired, he’ll pulled me against him hugging me tightly~ wow!! ‘Hang fook’ la! still got eh~ Stomach pain horr, he will apply ‘minyak angin’ for me leh….. =)

Hhhmm… ‘hang fook’ not easy to get. what i want more? wht i expect more? ‘kuai kuai dei’ stay by him enuf lo! see later i go back got home cook dinner again, he go buy dishes~ Cant wait!

I’ll never want to hurt him again… NEVERRrrrrrrrrr!!!!!

Hi Everybody!! YOUuuu, My loyal blog’s fans out there…!

You must have been waiting long enough for a new post after the last dated blog huh? Well, lemme see…

Yea, that DREAM which i have posted, no wonder i got so many weird-weird Q’s like…

"Is it real..?"

"U don’t want ur dreams (career) anymore?"

"Are u okay?"

"When u tie-ing the knot?"

"U feeling insecure with ur BF…"

and at the very LEAST…..

"ARE U PREGNANT?!?!?!?!" —–>>> Well, for the one whom ASKED me this, ur so the…………….. Ridiculously insane~ mad~ silly~ seetupid!!

=.=" my goodness!

Muahahaha~ she’s juz worried bout me, cos she loves me, therefore she cares so much, and i knew it… YOU KNOW WHO U ARE! muahahaha~

Next time, my dear… READ THE WHOLE BLOG!!! ARGH, i mentioned it’s JUST A DREAM thingie! Eeeeeewww -__-"

Well, apart of it, let’s just dumped that aside. it’s nt so the serious anyways.

For you out there, my precious pals, and loyal blog’s fans…

I’m BACK!!!!! Wa sudahhh balik!!!!!!! Wo hui lai le! Ngo fan lei la!

Aaahh deiii…?! SO??

So.. The surprise is, i’m not goin back to island animore. My heartest apology to Afa! Em hou yi si my fren… Leaving u there alone, but like u say, u support me tooo, so there’s nth to be sorry about. We need to live for ourselves, not for others… Thanks for the companion on island! Glad to have u there, really….=)

Hhmm.. i got a new thing for u ALL. I am goin back to STUDIES.

"I can accept UNPREDICTABLE, but not DRASTIC!!" (a bestie’s statement)

Anyways, i don’t see much difference btw unpredictable and drastic? Wakaka!

Yea, u saw me right. as i mentioned earlier on, i not only found what i want, but i see what i need more. End of story.

Where else? The KAMPAR new town! YESS Kampar, i’m goin there~ AGAIN~

Definately not goin to stay in KL, no way of me concentrate in my studies esp with my dunno-where-dunno-when, i got so addicted to my BABY!! Juz like so much to HUG HIM… KISS HIM Ooo yea~ =)

Drastic? Ooo yea~ ByeZ! Got things to do. Will continue anther time, not so good for a long post oso, u guys read a bit don’t read a bit, then start asking me weird Q’s! Ok la! see ya!

Very Guilty… Feelings of uncertainty poured all over me. Do i really love him? This guy, in front of me now….. wants me to marry him. YES. U saw me correctly. MY BABY. HE WANTS ME TO MARRY HIM. He wants to tie me up with him, so seriously. He doesn’t want to separate with me animore. He wants to take care of me for the rest of his life. And of course, for the rest of MY life. bUT, i’m STILL so YOUNG! WE ARE STILL YOUNG! So fast he wants a commitment with me. So fast, so quickly! I know… I know. I know. I know. He really loves me.

I said i’ll think about it. He seems so depressed. My thoughts wandered back to the most begining of out Love Story, back at PD beach. He’s so shy. He’s so afraid. He’s so low-esteem. So DE-motivated. Back then, i said the same thing too, "I’ll think bout it…..". It’s the same expression.

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I agreed. Yes, i didn’t know why i agreed. But i have agreed. His family was so happy to have me in the family. His mom’s in great delight! She’s a typical traditional lady that knows a lot of traditional chinese stuffs. Upon our marriage, Future mom-in-law prepares alot alot and alot of things. Not 100%, but alr 90% of every little thing that must have in a chinese traditional marriage.

I am feeling… UNCERTAIN. Why? i don’t know. Suddenly, i feel like i don’t love him animore. So sudden. I am feeling hatred of eri little thing he’s doing. Is this what we called pre-marriage depression?

On the day of our marriage, i was so nervous. SO SO SO nervous. i look good! I’m wearing my bridal gown, but the image of me wearing it is not so clear. I only know i looked SO good. But, I’m not feeling good. Suddenly, i have a very strong feeling of un-willingness. i told a fren of mine whom i really can’t recall back who was it, "I MUST CALL HIM, ONE LAST TIME".

"No.. u can’t call him. Please. You are getting married u know? Now only u say u regret? In LESS than an hour u’ll be on the walkway to a new beginning with a person that will love u forever!"

"NO. I must call HIM…"

"He’s went to Japan!! U won’t be able to find him!"

Japan..? I don’t trust her… "I MUST CALL HIM…"

"Hello…?"

"Hello…" (a lady’s voice)

"Eeerr.. ya… can i speak to (*name of tht person*) please?"

"He’s went to Japan…."

"Oh… But i have smth i really must ask him, and get an answer…"

"U can ask me… i’ll answer on his behalf"

"Sorry, but.. may i know who r u…?"

"I’m his mom…"

"Oh.. Sorry aunty… i am getting married in less than an hour.. i just wanted to ask your son….. IS HE REALLY LETTING ME GO? WILL HE REGRET..?"

"I think i know who u r…. You should let go of my son my dear… and go seek for your happiness…… you won’t be happy with my son. And………….."

OW! THAT HURTS!!!!!!!!! HURT. HURT. HURT! Really hurts! i feel like being stab directly in the heart!

A huge feeling of heartbreaking surround me, i suddenly lost all rationality, having an emotional breakout, I CRIED MY HEARTS OUT………. TEARED non-stop dropping…

I feel so in pain. So in pain! The feeling is so REAL.

My eyes opened. My pillow’s wet. Tears’s still rolling down to the pillow. Only to realise, IT’S JUST A DREAM, AFTER ALL.

Ngek~ngek~ngek…=.="

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Ha ha ha!!! ^^"

I’m sure u know WHO is WHO in the above? Have u ever cried urself awake? It’s a common thing for me, when i was YOUNG. I alwiz cried myself awake in the night. Recently, it comes back. This is just one of the latest, happened just last night.

IT’S JUST A DREAM, AFTER ALL………. ngek~ngek~ngek~ ;p

Since it WAS the School holidays, Public holidays, Easter holidays, WHATever the holidays….. the resort was packed with guest! Of course, me been busying for sure~ Finally just TODAY, it has cooled down with a big group of 42 pax, and some other small small groups checked out, A SIGH OF RELIEF! Phew~~` New event has arrived, and seems like a quiet week coming. HOPEFULLY!

Add on with a TROUBLE COUPLE keep giving trouble… AH!! FAster Shoo off mann…. Eeewww…-__-" Hospitality’s trend…..

To YOU all out there, my blog’s LOYAL fans… ATTENTION please~ hhmmm… the author is recently having some NEW things in mind. To say it New, it’s not so-the-new. To say old…. not so the old oso. juz wanna GO BACK TO TIME.

I don’t know if it’s juz a mood swing thingie or what. Like i alwiz mention, i’m SO the UNpredictable. One moment i wanna do this, the other moment i wanna do that. Wtd..? I can afford to play the game. (not right way of thinking though*) Like a chinese phase sounded like "keuk tap sat dei". I’m so NOT that. My foot’s never ‘tap sat dei’. I’m alwiz doing things how i like it to be, but, don’t judge me please for being not-consistent. This is call: ADVENTURE. Haha!! BLa la, adventure? Young la… i still wanna play… not sure what i wanna do oso.. why why why??? Wait. NO. If i don’t know what i want, i won’t be here now. I know what i want. Juz that this time i’m seriously committing to the industry, I KNOW WHAT I WANT MORE. I WANNA GO GET MORE KNOWLEDGE. Serious this time.

Wait till i be back to KL soon, and i’ll see how my faith goes. If i succeed in applying for ‘IT’, i MIGHT, say might, go for it.. WHat thing is that, wait for my good news! Or, vise-versa. I think Kelvin should know what? Thanks for ur support pal!! If i don’t do it this year, It’ll be too late next year….. I must really consider HARD!

Only thing is, i find it VERY hard to say it to DANIEL. How to open my mouth?? in Dilemma……… i think he more or less know alr. he did say "no one use string to tie u here" as if giving me permission, n support, of course. And.. How should i Explain to my boss? Maybe ask for a sponsor? Hahaha!

Still in consideration…

That’s one case. Case 2, sometimes i feel guilty. I still keep in contact with my So-use-to-be, and still IS, VVIP. Doing that, i feel unfair to my BABY. As long as he understands me, there’s no problem, and FORTUNATELY, he does’nt mind, at least he told me that. Siao meh? Mean and Dumb girls only will believe that la. Yes, suppose NO NEED to report to him, but i want to be fair. Somemore, i know i should’nt have called him (VVIP), should juz let him go, and commit fully to my BABY as it goes. So bad, i have this intention, TO let him (VVIP) know HOW HAPPY i am at this moment!!

We talked. We chat. We laughed together, We have fun chatting, though for a short while. So much better than last time, where whenever i called him, i WISH for that something i know i will NEVER get. u got what i mean? Now, talking to him have been so relaxed. Never again wishing for some ridiculous thing i know i will never get. Why repeat?? aiks.

FAIR. And honest. not so-the-honest not-so-the-good. Frankly speaking, i don’t see myself as a thinker. until now, i still don’t really know what i want. ‘Sum yea’ (addicted heart). Not that i doubt my own feelings towards my BABY, I’m loving him, he loves me more, tht’s for sure. but.. to say so, not so the right oso. Love’s hard to quantify, right? Never say who loves who more, my wrong, i pulled back my words!

Oh yah.. back to the previous post bout my Baby not calling me remember? and i actually lodge a complaint here? Haha! He’s juz too tired, and at the night when we really chat, he did asked me. I directly told him i was SO THE MAD, and he was so Sorry! Trick him one. keke;p

Say until like that, u sure know not so a big a problem lo! ^^" I’m still a happy me~

BOOOoooooommmm!

I don’t know how to open my mouth…

I don’t know how to say………………

It seems so sweet…………….

So smooth…………………….

So fine………………………..

In the beggining!

But to a certain  extend, i feel something’s just so not right…

IS THIS A PROBLEM OF LDR? Yea, i think so…..

Not that i don’t trust him……

Not that i don’t have confidence on him animore…..

But smth’s not so right………

And i don’t know how to describe it…………………

Icebell doesn’t belive my strong loyalty towards a CERTAIN SOMEONE, can fade off juz like tht… She don’t see the point.

Futuremore, this 2 days, he’s been acting differently.

Slight Changes… Slight Difference… Slight felings….. wht else? It’s shaking, if he continues to behave in such a way… i don’t think i want to tolerate someone who behaves contradict-cally from wht i believe, NO?

OR…

IT’s just me thinking too much? I ADMIT. But if nth’s really goin on, what is there for me to think? I care, therefore i can think alot. Can i say like that? Of course i can.

I’m having some emotional swing. ONE CALL IS SO IMPORTANT. It can makes me insomia the wole night. YET, he can act like NOTHING. *head shooks*

GUYS.

TO be so-and-the-very honest, i don’t like GAME. I get tired n bored so very the quickly and fast, u won’t be able to catch wht i am thinking. I’m a typical LADY. My mood can swings as fast as lightning~ No KIDDING!

U GET MY POINT? HE DIDN’T CALL ME THE WHOLE NIGHT!!! I’M MAKING A STATEMENT HERE! I’M COMPLAINING! LIKE MOST GIRLS DO. AND HE DIDN’T EVEN MSG ME! WHEN I CALLED HIM, HE DIDN’T EVEN BOTHER TO A W.H.Y. AND ACT LIKE NTH. I GOT PISSED OFF N HUNGED UP, JUST LIKE THAT. DID HE CALL BACK? NOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! SO GIRLS, I KNOW WHT UR ADVISE WOULD BE =.="

B.E.W.A.R.E. IT’S A SIGNAL?

I TRUST YOU.

No la…. ISH. at least at this time being… it’s still NO. Give him a chance and see how. It’s not so serious, right? Don’t jumped to conclusion so fast.YET. I just want to LODGE a complaint here to all u my LOYAL BLOG FANS OUT THERE…

I WANT TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!! ARGGGGHHHHHHHH~~~~

My BABY is so NOT a BABY now… argh!!!

Not really in the mood to Blog. But since i’m sitting here (ALWIZ!), and smth’s up!

Finally, the day has come! Tmr AFA will be joining me in this beautiful island! Can u believe it? I still can’t believe it, honestly. I thought me working with D’Coconut is juz my thing, i’ll never be able to bring frenZ in. Maybe suggest a place for a relaxing vacation, YES. But working here? I don’t think any of my frenZ can ever survive it here? No entertainment, no shopping, no clubbing… Completely out of the city life, and a bit out from the outside world too~ Living PEACEFULLY here, living in paradise. Ignoring wht really happened on mainland~ LAI WEE LICK, U ACTUALLY FLY MY AEROPLANE TOO!!!!!!! Angry you! AArrrrrgh……..=.="

BUT hey! Afa will be coming in tmr! He’ll be taking the bus tonight. i can’t say yet for sure how long he will be able to survive working here. But at least, i got a fren! Not tht i don’t have frens here, we’re all working together. BUT, having one fren U KNOW FOR A LONG TIME working together, the feeling is of course so different. At least, i don’t need to occupied the whole family room by myself, feeling so quiet n ……….. CREEPY at times! CREEPY is ownself scare ownself la. Sometimes the FROG will make noise right outside ur doorsteps makes u startled like it has made it ways in to the room, jumping on ur sheets!!!!!!! OR, the strong wind knocks on the door, making u jump in shocked, again… huhu ;p

Afa will try out 1st. He doesn’t want to deal with guests, and requested to work in the KITCHEN!!! WTF ~.~" but, respect his choice. I know he can cook. And he likes cooking. So, let him lo! Hehe, next time i won’t be afraid nobody will fry me eggs when there’s no dishes to go with my meal! No need mafan big LORD DANIEL alr, keke ;p. Still frm time to time, i still likes to kacau him!

We’ll be transfer to Langkawi a few mths later when the Hill Resort is done. Heard said, it’s really cold up the hill there. The weather is so much like Genting, even cooler than Genting! Me So afraid of cold. Have to go see how 1st. Hopefully, Afa will get use working with D’Coconut! If not…. i’ll be left alone again… haiZH. Ask me to be alone in Langkawi, honestly, really need to think twice. NO DANIEL there. If got Afa go with me still ok. I’m no independant in working alone no? hehehe ;p Like i said, i’ve been so pampered by DANIEL LIM! Wheeeeee~ Where to find a manager like him? MY PRIDE. MY BLESSINGS!

** My Baby is in pain today! Poor BABY. He went hiking with frens, coming back aching all over. Guess he didn’t do enough warm up huh?? =.=" POOR BABY IN PAIN!! ARGHhhhhh ~.~"

1. What do you think of the most when you are alone?
- Just Relax!

2. When it is a rainy night, what do you do most of the time?
- My usual routine la~ Home then home, Out then out, Sleep then sleep, what more?

3. When was the last time you were given roses and from whom?
- Whheeeee!!! 23.02.08 from my Most HANDSOME!! Again, feeling so ‘hang foooookkk’! 1st time wey~ keke =p

4. What do you do when you see a full moon?
- Eehh… Really wanna know? I make a wish!

5. Would you rather swim in the lake or dive in the ocean?
- DIVE! I know it’s incredible under the sea/ocean… It’s a totally different world!

6. What would be the best partner of a good cup of coffee?
- The Baker’s things! Cakes, breads, pastries….. Yumn yumn…… Yummy!

7. If you were to ask yourself a question now, what would it be?
- I don’t any Q for myself.

8. If certain things in your life fall apart, what will you do?
- Cry….. Sob….. Teared….. After which, stand up bold and continue walking! Not end of the world after all~

9. What was the hardest decision you made in your life so far?
- Not yet the hardest… I have my dreams, and goals, and missions, to accomplish… Thank god i have good, nice, and loyal supporters with me, and i’m so thankful, and glad!

10. When your friends forget you, what will you do?
- Depends on which friend, what friend. Normally, i don’t give a damn, but see wht i’ll do in return! WATCH OUT YOU!!! naa… j/k. They forget you, wht can u really do but to feel disappointed with them???

11. Do you talk to yourself?
- Eh sometimes…. I ENCOURAGE myself alot!!

12. Is there anything that you are craving for right now?
- A kiss from my BABY.

13. Single or taken?
- Taken!! Taken! Taken! Taken!!! I’m TAKEN!! ;p

14.Ever cried for something stupid?
- Hell Yes.

15. Do you like anime?
- Not really.

16. How about Japanese music?
- No.

17. What music are you into, anyway?
- Hhhmm.. Sentimental? Music’s not really my soul wey~

18. Do you have a malicious mind?
- I have. More or less erione has this. It’s juz a matter of strong or weak. I’m not a saviour, so i consider myself… maybe 20% ?

19. First thing you do after watching a movie?
- Curse if it’s a damn movie, praise if it’s a good one.

20. Do you wash the dishes in your house?
- Of course. If not me who else?

21. Can you last two days without a bath/shower?
- If no choice, wtd? Nobody can die w/o a shower/bath. There’s even some ethnic which bath only 3 times in their whole life!!!

22. Most common words in your classroom.
- "Cikgu… FREE TIME!!!" (I know, we know!) ha ha ha!

23. The last lie you told your parents?
- Errmmm… Here:

Mom: Can u make it back on the ………. bla bla bla….

Me: No i can’t. I’m in Terengganu at the moment.

Mom: What u doing there?

Me: Having a vacation here~!!! -__-"

25. Still go to the mall with your parents?
- No.

26. Are you brand conscious?
- Not Really. Sometimes yes.

27. Ever fell in-love?
- So in love!

28. Who do you miss right now?
- Not really missing anione… REALLY!! U said NOW, later i dunno… hehehe ;p

29. Watched any good movies lately?
- Ratatoullie. Not lately lo.. i dont alwiz go to the movies.

30. Is it in you to kill someone?
- WTF?

31. Daydream a lot?
- No. Me Realistic, RATIONAL people. haha~

32. Happy with your life?
- Yea YEA YEAaaaaa~~!

The sea condition is still not so welcoming. Wave’s still rough, but not as rough as the day i arrived here last Thursday. That was far more terrible, horrible, vegetable-ly scary! Even afer 3 days, wave’s still rough, even the boat got ‘mati enjin’ juz after we passed by the shore, reaching the ‘kuala’. Very big wave had hitten the boat, even me sitting inside the boat jumped off my seat!! WHoooooOPs! WOoo~ Still, i reached here safely~ wht a journey? even it’s been a week, i still feel the *horror*. Only one thing in my mind at tht very moment, "Xiang shou guo chen" (enjoy the process!) I’m sure my Bao Bei will use the same quote to assure me too~ LOL… Adventurous journey! Plane Sways, Boat ROcks~ nice huh??

Each night sure get heart-attack while getting to sleep. The room is juz near the beach. Strong wind keeps hitting on glass door making it sounded like someone’s knocking on it!!!!!!!!! And i’m juz sleeping next to IT. AGAIN, HORRIBLE………… TERRIBLE………… VEGETABLE………… Haih!!!!!!!!!!

One week passed. Work load hasn’t doubled nor tripled up yet. wait till the super-peak season n’ u’ll know. now is still off-peak. not much to do. but i’ve alr planned on my leave! SO-FAST-SO-GOOD huh?? hehehe.. not even a month working, is thinking about leave alr! hahaha~ I MUST go back and see my BABY! and my pretty princess as well~

Dunno wht to do with my pretty. Currently She’s having this dilemma. I know she sure wants me to be with her but too bad i’m away! There’s nth much i can do, i hope she can think better for herself, and be happy about her own choice. She’s letting too much of comments to distract her. Making her in real confusion………. Too emotional don’t turn things good!

Back to my baby, for the past 2 days i’ve actually being a bit the moody with things regarding him. I’ve even thought of not answering his calls, don’t wanna call him, don’t reply his smses. WHY??????? (but i did replied to his calls n smses in the end..-__-")

I’m IN STRESS. I’ve given him a pic of my own, and my Sgh D-520, with my pics inside. This is wht i got:

"U know, i’ve been hugging ur pic to sleep….. Each night i have to kiss u on ur pic then only i’ll sleep nicely….. i miss u.. i want u… i love you…………."

AND THE STORY GOES ON……….

As a soft-hearted me, i didn’t know why i got EMO over it, whenever he says he gotta hug my picture, kissed it and go to sleep. i really didn’t know why. Only to think properly, i FEEL guilty.

Why Guilty?

I have made the decision to come here to work, long b4 i met him. Why does cupid only matches him to me, when i am leaving? tht puts me in SorrowS! (but STRICTLY NOT to mean that i rather don’t know him!) A guy who loves me so much, he sacrifise his time, his health, and sleep, juz to see more of me b4 i leave. Eventually when i really gotta leave, he is still giving me a lot of courage.

At 1st, i’m very ’siu sa’ (cool) one. i’m the one asking him to work properly, Sleep properly, eat properly, and don’t over-miss me. But in return, HE GOT TO TELL ME BACK WHAT I HAVE TOLD HIM B4!

Back to why im feeling guilty. ‘Loi kau’. I don’t mean i regret to have came here. NO. Just tht, finally *Cupid* had match me with him, and i leave him so soon to a far-not-so-far, but near-not-so-near place to work!

He keeps saying, "We’re apart for a short term of time only…… We’ll be together again in no time…"

I feel like a loser! HAHAHA~ Say i don’t miss him is fake, I MISS HIM DEARLY! Juz when i see Sis’s problem with Aki, i feel i have to appreciate more of my Baby. Tht makes me get so angry with myself! Angry myself for being -Emo- u know. He’s so innocent, and he get’s so nervous when i don’t reply him! BAD ME, COLD-HEARTED me for being so unfair to him… Aihsehh… Passed alr la…. NOW, I’m still so in love! Erione has emotions sways, admit it. I’ll try not to think of the off-side, and love my BABY MORE~!